September 19, 2011

Mamavation Monday: Connecting The Dots

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I started out writing these Mamavation Monday posts as a way to support my friend Heather, who has now lost inches and pounds and is looking quite svelte. Me? I’ve made strides. I am more conscientious of my water intake, especially when I spend hours at work on the computer.

Dots image http://morguefile.com/archive/display/694279But I’m feeling the need to connect many of the Mamavation dots – water, food choices, taking care of me, slowing down. I tell myself all the time that I’ve done this before, I can surely do this again. I wasn’t given food, I was taught how to garden. I know how this thing works. Eat right, exercise, get enough sleep, relax, enjoy life. Sounds really simple, right?

Yet here I sit on a Sunday morning at the local coffee shop trying to get ahead, while feeling like I’m actually playing catch up. BabyGirl is at religious school and instead of just relaxing with a book or going for a walk I’m getting all wound up because the week is starting and I’m already feeling like I won’t be able to do everything I want.

Last week, my friend Carrie suggested a book she’s been reading. Named for the number of hours in a week, 168 Hours, You Have More Time Than You Think is supposed to help you see where you spend your time and cut out the waste. My first thought was “do they have this on audio book?”, which they probably don’t because that’s kind of counter productive*. My problem isn’t so much where I spend my time, though. I will grab a copy of the book to check it out and glean some insight into determining how I can pare down my un-productive time.

As I’m in the coffee shop I start wondering if maybe I should just load up some music and for these few hours go for a walk. Sure, sounds great! It’s even tolerable outside now that it’s only in the high 90s. Will I do it though? Or will I just move down ‘exercise’ on my To Do list because other things are ‘more important’. Other things that are more important than ME, like grocery shopping or re-writing my To Do list because surely there are more things I should be doing.

Instead, I actually looked up if there was a Weight Watchers meeting during this time. I’m a life member so I may as well just go full circle and head back to where the buck stopped five years ago when I hit my goal weight of 144 and kept the weight off through my of my emotional angst. I obviously need something other than a weekly post or hanging my head in shame for not eating breakfast.

Now, to just suck it up and realize that going back to Weight Watchers doesn’t mean I’ve failed. All it means is that I’m returning back to my village. The village that won’t judge me for what I did while I was away. The village that thinks I’m already beautiful. The village that makes healthy a priority.

Like Hansel and Gretel who left bread to find their way back home, I’ve left clues along the way so I can find my way back to where I felt the best. I’m sure you have those clues too. How are you getting back to you?

* nope, as a matter of fact, there is an audiobook version of 168 hours – which I did not buy.

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Sara

{ 13 comments }

Patty @ A Day in My NYC September 19, 2011 at 7:36 am

Excellent post! Congrats on realizing going back to WW is not failure. It take courage and a real understanding of yourself to go back. Bravo!

I can totally relate to “not having enough time”…every week I feel this way. It’s exhausting so when this feeling comes over me I simply focus on this phrase: :”Do what I can, when I can.” I say it over and over until I feel I can believe it. Then i pick an item on my to-do list and just go for it. Somedays it helps more than others.

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:28 pm

Thanks for the support, Patty, and the little mantra. I have to get comfortable with being OK with doing what I can.

Shannon (Aries_Mommy) September 19, 2011 at 7:57 am

Hugs, it is hard to put you first, for all of us. Just know that you aren’t alone. I am going to see if my library has a copy of the book. It sounds like something I need to use. Good luck this week and go back to weight watchers with your head held high!

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:30 pm

Thanks for stopping by Shannon! I will hold my head high when I go back to Weight Watchers knowing I’ve got a great support system behind me too.

Katrina - @craftsbykatie September 19, 2011 at 9:17 am

I’m proud of you for finding the information to go back to your village. It’s an important step and you’ve made it. Just remember, you are the only you there is so you need to take care of you. Hugs!

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:31 pm

Hi Katrina,

Thanks for stopping by to share your support and offer you hugs. Appreciate having people out there cheering for me.

Wendy September 19, 2011 at 10:52 am

Going back to your village is a great thing! everyone needs a refresher course every now and then! And the books sounds awesome.. I’ll have to check it out!
And remembring t stop and take time for YOU is hard, VERY hard.. I just started doing it too, and it takes more than I thought it would. Good for you!

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:33 pm

Hi Wendy, I like how to called it a refresher course. That sounds like it’s for people who get it but may just be a little out of practice. Appreciate having you in my corner!

Owen's Mom September 19, 2011 at 11:29 am

I think most Moms (except the super-human barbie gals who MUST be aliens!) struggle to get it all done. My garden needs weeding, my kitchen is a mess, I have a few stray cobwebs and my blog needs some love. The biggest issue is to invest some time in ourselves or it is all mute anyway.

I love your positive attitude about WW. Hope you have a great week and get everything accomplished… while still taking some time to keep yourself healthy. Do it for you.

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:43 pm

Hi Owen’s Mom!

So important to invest time in ourselves – not only for US but to show our children that it’s normal. Thanks for being part of my village!

Julie @DutchBeingMe September 19, 2011 at 11:38 am

I love how you say that you are returning to your village. That is such a great way to put it. I feel like Weight Watchers is my village too… except the meeting I would normally go to has now become a competition between couples (or so it seems…) so once again I stopped. (But I digress.)

That book sounds amazing and I think I’m going to be doing some analysis of my week and the things I prioritize very very soon!

Sara September 19, 2011 at 12:46 pm

Hi Julie,

BOO to the competition! Weight Watchers meetings shouldn’t be like that. It took me awhile to find a meeting I was comfortable with attending, and not all the times are that convenient. But, we BOTH keep trying and that’s important!

Tracking food is important but I’d be interested in what I really do all day that at the end of the day I feel like I did nothing.

Prioritizing will be the word of the week!

Andrea September 20, 2011 at 9:15 pm

Like others have said, I think everyone struggles with fitting everything in perfectly. It just can’t happen. But congrats for taking a step and going back to WW. Good luck this week!!

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