I have this very odd habit. Well, I’m told it’s odd. Personally, I think it’s perfectly normal. And by normal I mean that I’ve been doing it as long as I can remember so, therefore, it’s normal.
I feel like I’ve just walked in to a 12-step program. Hi, my name is Sara. And I don’t use gifts right away. I don’t really know why, but when I get a gift I feel like I need to wait. Like I’m letting it cure or off-gas or acclimate to my little world. Even as a kid, I wasn’t one of those who tore in to a toy and started using it right away. Clothes always have to be washed first.
Evidently this isn’t normal for some people. It seems that actually using a gift right away is more normal than this waiting game I play. Maybe I’m just really honing those “saving” skills. It’s not like I’m a hoarder or anything. It’s just that I feel like I need to wait. To savor. To enjoy. To look at and stare at and imagine the amazement of said gift.
I can’t say that I learned this behavior. And if I did, I’ve had plenty of opportunities to unlearn it. But I just can’t shake it. It’s probably a diagnosable sickness. Maybe a syndrome of some type.
What’s weird is that I would never expect other people to wait to use a gift. I love it when BabyGirl rips in to a gift and immediate has plans to wear an outfit, create a game, or play something. As a parent, it’s our job to free whatever toy it is from it’s over-packaged plastic prison in 6.8 seconds flat. That toy will be played with before we’ve cleaned up all the torn wrapping paper.
I honestly wish I knew why I did this. I’m sure a psychologist could come up with a hand full of theories. It probably goes back to my childhood. Doesn’t everything? Maybe it’s a representation of something? I’ll have to think about this more, because the more I think about it the more I really want to figure out what’s the underlying issue. Where’s Dr. Freud when you need him?
Perhaps I should use the Google machine and see if there is a support group. Gift Savers Anonymous? I know I can’t be the only one out there who does this. Right?